Stilled

At times it’s hard to talk about myself so I don’t really, and I understand why some people don’t do it too much. I feel ashamed about how I lived my life, it’s hard to talk about pieces and events that changed and made me who I am. I shouldn’t be ashamed but it’s the setting it’s a religious environment, and I shouldn’t care but I do, and it feels aweful because the only person making me feel that way is me. It’s the two years I walk away from religion and wanted to find me so when I came back and I am still trying to find me there is shame there, it’s hard to let go, it’s harder to dismiss so that’s why I stay still stay silent.

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